I attended a conference recently exploring Transactional Analysis and existentialism. The idea was to explore and discuss working with clients and acknowledging the four challenges of existing – meaninglessness, aloneness, freedom and death. This could have made for a really bleak day. I could be wondering what it’s all about and whether there is a point to doing what I’m doing. I’m still getting my head around this but what I came away with was
As my understanding of being here is mine and mine alone, I have the freedom to make of it what I will. The way I make meaning around being here is mine and I am not obliged to explain it or apologise to anyone else.
I will die and so my experience of this living will die with me and that’s OK too. I am free to make a meaning for myself out of today. I am fully in control of my experience and understanding of this moment. And I can bloody well get on with it without having to consider what anyone else makes of my experience.
As I said – I’m still getting my head around it all. I’m guessing that it doesn’t matter if I ever make it make sense and I’ll come back to this I’m sure.